I was having a bit of a hard time this time last year. I have been in the same job for 10 years almost. I did get promoted, but after a year or so found that it wasn’t for me and went back to what I was doing. Having to bite my lip to meet protocol, instead of being able to give my honest answer to questions/scenarios, is not one thing I am very good at. I found that a lot of middle management spend their time saying what they are supposed to say as opposed to giving a truely objective criticism.

I am prone to depression too, especially when the nights draw in, which I am sure many of you suffer from too. You like to sleep/hibernate. All I was doing this time last year was going to work and getting back into bed. Which is a downward spiral.

But, this year I have found, that the more I learn/research/get out there with this project, the less I feel the depressing symptoms that I am used to. In fact, I am finding it hard to sleep at all!… At most I get 3 hours at a time, usually twice a night with a 2 hour gap or so at 4 am. I know that sounds like a negative, but I feel great, I am buzzing. The reason I wake up is that I am excited about what I am going to do next!

I know to some of you this might sound a bit over the top, but I dare you to try it. Be frugal with the spare time that you have and devote it to where you wanna be in 10/20/30 years time. Get out there, do it and see how different the world looks when you are not defined by day job!

I do realise that I may never succeed in my task, probably more to do with the fact that I spend a lot of time helping other people in their projects, applying the little I have learned so far. But, that gives me an enormous sense of calm and purpose. I get to create, facilitate and output as many hours a day as I like. I find myself at work jotting ideas down for mine and others’ projects (some not all great I must add ;p) The balance is shifting from me being what I do during the day, to what I am becoming outside of work.

We’re coming up to a new year, I dare you to test out what you can become by aiming for your dreams, and if there is any way I can help out email me.

Onwards and Upwards my friends, let’s do it!!

By the looks of it I’m not!

Some of you may have noticed that there are a few posts missing. I would like to say that that was intentional… but it wasn’t. I have been trying to sort out my shopping cart for a different site on the same hosting package that I have and managed to get all of the posts from here to disappear!

I spoke to my hosting helpdesk and they rolled back the site to a point which was last sunday, so I have lost the last 4 days work.

On the plus side, I have learned more stuff about WordPress (which is still rocking my world) and more about uploading to the server. So, you could probably say that this ballsup was actually a good thing. In fact, I seem to get more out of screwups than I do out of doing things right. I better understand the mechanism within which I am working when I break it!

My message, therefore, is (from experience) don’t be scared about messing stuff up, you will learn a lot from doing it!!